Emotional Starver

I’ve talked before about how I am fat and happy. I struggled for many years with anorexia and bulimia and those were the darkest years on my life. I was consumed with numbers and laxatives. (Sorry, TMI I know, but this entire article may be TMI)

I’ve come to associate lower BMI with depression and higher BMI with being happy. With today marking one week ago of having found my dads body, I cannot imagine eating. We found him last Saturday and I had one piece of pizza Monday afternoon. I felt hunger again on Thursday and ate. I don’t recall Wednesday because it was his funeral, but I likely ate something so people would be happy.

I think it’s important to know that every fat person you see, is not a lazy slob who emotional eats. Some of us have deep rooted past that are trying to keep from resurfacing.

Class Act: Advice Day Friday

At the recommendation of my Blogging 101 course, I’ve begun a new posting feature! My other posting feature thus far is Deep Thoughts. Check out the latest post! The 8th of each month I post a new fantastic, life changing quote!

My new feature will be Advice Day Friday. As some of you may know, my dad passed away suddenly and unexpectedly. 

I need advice. From the brilliant minds of fellow bloggers. How do I cope? How do I heal and move and not feel guilty about it?

Pain

This time last week I went about life completely unaware that I no longer had a father. Just doing life stuff, buying groceries….it wasn’t until a week from tomorrow that I found him.

I’m so sorry daddy. I’ve saved a million lives in my career and yours was the one I didn’t even get chance to try to save.